The beginning

Sooo blogging. Completely new to me, but I'm going to take a stab at it. Not the best at grammar, spelling, punctuation, but if you are reading this, you will get the point. I've started this blog for a variety of reasons. 1. I love reading them. 2. I'm battling an everyday occurrence with anxiety. 3. I'm done with it.

Our good friends from wikipedia (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Anxiety) suggest that anxiety is:

A generalized mood condition that can often occur without an identifiable triggering stimulus. As such, it is distinguished from fear, which is an emotional response to a perceived threat. Additionally, fear is related to the specific behaviors of escape and avoidance, whereas anxiety is related to situations perceived as uncontrollable or unavoidable.^[6] An alternative view defines anxiety as "a future-oriented mood state in which one is ready or prepared to attempt to cope with upcoming negative events",^[7] suggesting that it is a distinction between future vs. present dangers which divides anxiety and fear.

From all the research I've done, no one can really identify where it comes from or what causes it. I personally have been dealing with it all my life.

When I was elementary school, you could almost expect that the first day of school - from around 4-6 grade (1994-96), I would get myself so worked up about that first day that I would literally make myself sick, to the point of throwing up. Forget trying to eat breakfast those days, it wasn't happening. My parents would help the best they could by reinforcing the fact that everything was going to be ok, and that I had nothing to worry about BUT it wouldn't stop it from coming. It would only happen once and then I was done. I would feel better, get in the car, and make it to school just fine. So just a small case of the nerves and it was over, easy enough, so I thought. Also during the year of 1995 my mom got re-married and had a baby. Pretty life changing events - coincidence with my related anxiety episodes? The jury is still out on that. Some how I grew out it with no help from a doctor, meds, therapy, etc. With really no signs of it returning until college.

For this first post I'm going to leave it at that. I will pick back up this weekend. Stay tuned.